Talking with sisters from our sisterhood on Facebook took me on a trip down memory lane today. There was a day…not so long ago when I had a plan for my life. The plan was really detailed with everything worked out from what my career would be, to how many kids I would have to where my husband and I would live happily ever after. At that point in my life everything was perfectly planned and I was happy everything in the plan was working out just the way it was planned.
Then one day out of nowhere everything shifted. The plan fell apart. The plan began to fall apart when my marriage began to fall apart. Once that part of my plan came unraveled all the rest of the plan fell apart as well. As it was unraveling I was a bit like a two-year-old having a temper tantrum. I was kicking and screaming, putting up a fight, wanting to hold on to control. It was an incredibly uncomfortable time in my life. Giving up my plan was really hard, giving up control was even harder.
I felt lost and like my whole life was falling apart as I was forced to let go of the plan I had for my life. I grieved, I felt sad, I felt like a failure, I felt so alone. I spent a lot of time wondering what I did wrong to deserve all that was happening. It was a rough time.
I didn’t know it at the time but I know now that this incredibly hard time was the beginning of an awakening for me. Through time I have come to see that my plan and my need to be in control was actually stifling me, even though I couldn’t admit it then. There were opportunities and possibilities in front of me that I couldn’t see. I couldn’t dream big enough to reach them.
I know there are sisters in our sisterhood right now who are experiencing something similar to this. While the details of your journey may not be the same as mine, your journey is. I know it’s hard right now. I know you are feeling lost and alone. I know it feels heavy and you are flooded with negative emotions that you feel like you will never get past.
I want you to know there is hope. Sometimes in the midst of feeling lost, and like you are in the middle of nowhere all alone, you find yourself. What you are experiencing just might be the catalyst that propels you into bigger dreams and possibilities than you could have discovered before. Take a deep breath, call in divine love & light and give yourself the love you deserve. Have faith that there is a divine plan at work. Open your heart and feel the possibility that there is something big unfolding. It may feel far away or maybe even farfetched. I promise you there is a divine plan at work. Hold on to the faith that there are better times, bigger dreams and ginormous possibilities in front of you my dear!
What are you struggling to surrender? Are you feeling lost as your plan unravels? What are you doing to love you through the journey? Share your thoughts and feelings with our sisterhood. We all learn and grow together when we share.